Alaya's Pov
I was recklessly walking back and forth in his room.
My heart was beating fast like I just ran a marathon, eyes were looking at the horrendous site in front of me.
The whole bed was decorated with the red rose petals, beautiful candles and lights. This might be someone's dream, but to me it felt like a needle inserting deep in my heart.
I wanted to throw up badly, I felt like the bile was rising in my stomach, but I held myself.
This wait was getting more painful with each passing second.
I collapsed on the couch helding my head between palms.
This marriage shouldn't happen.
Nervousness was engulfing me as I kept on looking at the door, and finally it opened and he entered inside.
His eyes landed on me for a second and then he closed the door.
I composed myself and stood up.
"Why didn't you run away ?" I asked or whispered, because I could still hear some noises from outside. Maybe his sisters are waiting for some progress. As I could hear their giggles from outside.
"Shshhh" he placed his palm over my mouth completely shutting me off and closing every ounce of distance between us.
"What are you doing, everyone will listen to you" he said in his husky voice.
Is he serious ?
Here I'm stuck in this marriage that I didn't even want at first place with this fu**king beautiful hundred kgs lehenga and he is asking me to shut up.
"Ouch" he shouted as I forcefully hit his legs with my stilletos.
"Are you serious ? Do you even have an idea that we are stuck in this marriage for forever ?" I was glaring at him with all my energy left after this marriage and of course bearing the weight of this a hundred kgs of beautiful lehenga.
"And don't you even try to shush me" I said pointing my finger at him as he raised his hand to signal me to lower my voice but I was faster than him.
He looked at me in disbelief and took sigh, rubbing his forehead with forefingers.
I folded my hand in front and started to glare at him, still not contemplating why he didn't run away.
He looked at me and again took a sigh.
"What are you doing ?" I asked as he held my hand.
"Come with me " he said in a calm yet commanding voice, making me sit on that beautifully decorated bed.
"Listen to me Alaya" he whispered sitting next to me and closing all possible distance. Close enough to make me restless.
I know that he wasn't doing it intentionally. He didn't want to come closer to me, nor was he interested in me, but still my heart beat quickened. My face reddened and sweet bead started to form on my forehead.
I only know him since a month but I kind of develop trust on him but my fucking body doesn't understand these things.
Trust, faith, belief, these words don't sound familiar to me.
I took a few sighs as everything was getting blurred in front of me. I clutched the bedsheet tightly only to erase my nervousness.
But a few rose petals crushed in my fist spreading a sweetish fragrance in the air, flaring my anxiety more.
"Are you okay?" His husky voice ranged in my ear. I jumped out of my thoughts and stood up suddenly.
"What happened ?" He asked to see me at this stage. His eyes were questioning and I didn't know for some reason I could see concern in them.
But I couldn't tell him anything. I couldn't tell anyone. I was and will be alone for forever.
"Nothing I'm feeling suffocated in this dress" I said turning away from him as a tear drop rolled down from my eyes.
I rubbed it before he could see me.
"Let's sit there, that place is closer to the window" I asked changing the topic. He looked at me for a brief second and then nodded.
I rushed towards the window and sat on the couch placed near the window, looking outside.
Please god ! I've more important things than getting a panic attack at this moment.
I took a few deep breaths closing my eyes.
"Here" I opened my eyes only to find him passing a glass of juice.
"Drink this you'll feel better" he said. I looked at him for a second realising that I'm not alone in this room.
"You can change into something else" he said. He was looking concerned about me and I don't know for some reason I felt that he could sense my anxiety.
But I won't be telling him anything.
Never.
"No thanks, I'm fine now " I said lowering eyelid and taking the glass from his hands.
He stood there for a while and then sat down across from me.
"Why didn't you run away ?" I asked for the nth time since he showed up in this marriage.
"Someone eves dropped Alaya" he said. My eyes widened in shock.
"Really ?" I asked jumping again from the couch. How could this happen ? It was a full proof plan then how could he ruin it.
"How could you be so careless ?" I asked pulling hairs from my head.
"Not me but you were the careless one" he said pointing his finger towards me and gritting his teeth.
I was in shock and more in denial. That couldn't happen. I was very alert and active, I never talked in front of anyone about it. I always made sure to close the doors. Then how could it happen ?
It couldn't.
I looked at him as he was looking back at me.
He is lying. Definitely a liar. This couldn't happen. I could never ruin my own plan.
I started laughing sarcastically.
"You are lying right ?" Anger was bubbling inside me but I didn't have any option than to laugh at my condition.
He looked at me like already knew that it was going to happen. He stood up from his place and walked towards the bed where his coat was resting.
I wanted to yell and shout at him. I wanted to scratch his so good to be true handsome face. I wanted to make him wear this f**king beautiful hundred kgs lehenga and make him dance for me.
But I couldn't.
I remained glued to my place, looking at the decorated bed from where he pulled out something from his pocket.
Exactly the same way I remained glued to my place performing all those rituals a few hours ago, without any tantrum, without any scene. Even though every second of that was reminding me to run away, to throw everything around me.
But I didn't.
I remained glued to my place, clad in this f**cking beautiful red embellished a hundred kgs of lehenga.
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